Lead Me, Jesus

Today I walked out of the office, shut the office door with pleasure and walked to my vehicle for a much needed lunch break and fellowship with my Savior. My morning had been crazy trying to prioritize everything that needed to get done at the office and at the same time worrying about whether or not I would have enough time to practice piano for as long as I wanted to when I got home...

Days like today make me realize just how badly I need Jesus to lead me not just every day, but every moment. So there I sat in the parking lot's surprising quiet, and I prayed, "Lead me, Jesus". I didn't realize until just now that He answered that short little prayer. I opened up to my new favorite book and read chapters 5 and 6 of Jeremaiah. I was convicted over and over again as God grew justly angry with Israel over their spiritual adultery and wickedness. Time and time again, Jesus begged them to repent and return to Him, but they refused. Utterly refused. He led them and they did not follow. They continued in their treacherous ways, commiting spiritual adultery with idols made of sticks and stones.

I had to pause many times and ask myself how often I put foolish things above my Savior. Isn't it almost daily that I consciously put some thing or person above the Lord. Aren't I also committing spiritual adultery when my work, my life, my friends and my music become more important than my Savior? I am just as "treacherous" (God's adjective for Israel) as Israel was for bowing down to idols!

This new conviction is still setting in. It hurts deeply. When will I fully realize that life is nothing without God? When will my soul thirst for Him so desperately that I will let nothing and no one keep me from coming before his throne every day? I don't know the answer, but I do know that my prayer is going to continue to be "Lead Me, Jesus" and now I am becoming more and more ready ... ready to follow my King.


Jeremiah 3:7-9
"And I said after she had done all these things, Turn thou unto me. But she returned not. And her treacherous sister Judah saw it.And I saw, when for all the causes whereby backsliding Israel committed adultery I had put her away, and given her a bill of divorce; yet her treacherous sister Judah feared not, but went and played the harlot also. And it came to pass through the lightness of her whoredom, that she defiled the land, and committed adultery with stones and with stocks."